2021

Video, single-channel, color, with sound

Video Duration: 1 minute 10 seconds

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錄像長度：1分10秒

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“Breathing in New York” series is about a connection I imagined between three seemingly unrelated but concurrent events that took place in New York in March 2020: the mask mandate resulting from the outbreak of COVID-19, the plastic bag ban, and my personal experience of race in New York City. Once I was walking on the streets and wearing a mask in Manhattan; Two white males passed me and called me “Chinese, Mask”, which was weird because I am not Chinese. 

 

The feeling was less threatening and more strange and confusing. This was the first time I experienced a level of discrimination that was palpable. At the moment, I wasn’t even aware that it was racial discrimination because I had never experienced it before. My complicated feeling is not only because of racial discrimination, but also the abnormal relationship in politics, history, and culture between Taiwan and China. The word “Chinese” has multiple and ambiguous meanings, and it is a complex and sensitive topic for me as a Taiwanese.

 

Therefore, I thought that if I covered my head, people wouldn't know my identity. I did a seemingly ridiculous and a little sad action of covering my head with a plastic bag with a colorful Key Food label to hide my identity that, at the same time, could be seen as protection against COVID-19. Wearing a plastic bag might be not only for hiding my identity but also to avoid being defined by others. I wanted to and tried to get back the right to define myself. I am who I am.

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在《Breathing in New York》系列中，我想像了三個看似無關但同時發生在2020年三月紐約的事件之間的聯繫：因COVID-19爆發而導致的戴口罩令、紐約州發起的塑料袋禁令以及我在紐約市遭遇關於種族的個人經歷。有一次我戴著口罩走在曼哈頓的街上，兩位白人男子從我身邊走過，朝我的方向喊「Chinese、mask」，我感到很奇怪，因為我不是中國人。

此刻，我沒有感受到危險，反而覺得奇怪和困惑。這是我第一次經歷明顯的歧視，當時，我甚至沒有意識到這是種族歧視，因為我以前從未經歷過。我的複雜感受不只是因為種族歧視，還有臺灣與中國在政治、歷史、文化等方面的特殊關係。“Chinese”一詞的多重含義對我這個台灣人來說是一個複雜而敏感的話題。

因此，我想如果我把頭蒙起來，人們就無法知道我的身份。我做了一個看似可笑又有點悲傷的動作，用一個印有Key Food彩色標籤的塑料袋套住我的頭來隱藏我的身份，這同時可以被視為對COVID-19的保護。戴上塑料袋不僅是為了隱藏我的身份，也是為了避免被被別人定義，我想試圖取回定義自己的權利，我就是我。

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